Aunt Agony 290406

Originally posted by I-like-flings(m):
why har??? never really happy recently...even when my colleague is throwing mi party after party... but i go there like an empty shell.. my mind is totally not there.. just go there to pay the bill nia.. sighz.. why why why?? it is possible coz increment is about 10% plus only.. or just still havent recover from my 3mth business trip in italy?.... anyone feel the same as mi b4???? or dun tell mi is mid life crisis already?? or instinct telling mi to settle down and start a family to share all this with?..

got 1 lover, 1 sex partner and 1 dunno how to define one....still not enough meh? what i am short of now?? sighz....why i am unhappy?


I think that is the problem.

You are empty because your relationship is as empty as void.

Having three partners doesn't equate to fulfillment. In fact, it blatantly revealed how vulnerable your emotions are to insecurity and the fear of Love/commitment. People who fear Love often attempt to gather more partners so as just 'reassure' themselves and acts as a contingency plan in case one partner 'fails' him. They do not have to face the situation of a complete lost and could actually carry on and cling their unhealthy love mindset onto the other remaining few.

All these relationship you have created are as unstable as MLM. The minute this grand 'edifice' collapse, you see how weak the structure of this model is. And an unconscious truth is that: you are constantly recreating your feared scenario - the fear and lack of faith towards love commitment:

Fear commitment - create unstable model that it wouldn't last - realise it is unstable - create MORE of such unstable models - gradually some fails - recreate more - generate greater fear of commitment - repeat cycle with greater intensity.

If you call that fulfilling, then you are likely to deceive yourself through strong delusional reinforcing.

[quote]or dun tell mi is mid life crisis already?? or instinct telling mi to settle down and start a family to share all this with?.. sighz..... [/quote]

You have already expressed your greatest fear here and the novelty of flings is dying for you.

I think it's time for you to mature emotionally.

Cheers