Broken Woman and her Destiny (Part 1)

Apologies for the inactive posting; my forum has been rather quite dead these days and my personal schedule has been rather packed. Told myself that I shall at least post today.

You see, I am already dealing with a lot of emotions and problems during the course of my offline work. Sometimes, it creates an inverse relationship with my blogging life. Basically what I mean is that the more intensive my offline work becomes, the less I am inclined to blog.

Self care is something critical to keep my mind sane. I can't be dealing with problems 24/7 and I do have quite a busy personal life.

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Today's topic is about love and choices - which I deemed this as the foremost principle in love (in CloUdism of course).  It is almost like I have engraved it my own words in some gold plated plaque, constantly being reminded by this principle regardless of how my own book of love has evolved over the years.

Love is involuntary; relationship is voluntary. Therefore, it is we who chose our partners, not the other way round. 

I came across a severely broken woman, who has made a couple of 'unwise' choices as perceived by her own peers and bystanders. The process to pick herself up is tremendously encumbering; each attempt being marred by another bout of unwise choice and resulting in a downward spiral to bleak hell.

The profile of this lady is a classic one; one that blames her destiny and the men she met. It is always the men around her and that she has played the cast and recite the script of a sorry love life for ages. Each recitation reaffirmed the fact that her destiny is at such pitiful stage and that she proceeds with her love life almost like a chance gamble - never stopping for a quiet introspection to decide if her journey in her love life is heeding towards an accident.

It is unfortunate that her love and belonging need is way too intensive till the point that she fulfills them in an ineffective way; the inability to manage her fear of loneliness, reinforced over and over again by tons and tons of bad childhood experience. That having someone 'lousy' is still better than having 'nobody'.

Thus, the choice is a logical one. Keep the bad ass then.

Because they have been taught that they are unloving and that they deserved only such caliber of partner/s.

(To be continued)